When i was diagnosed, i was also hearing voices. I didnt know it then but that is common with people who have bipolar disorder. So my full diagnosis is Bipolar with Auditory Hallucinations. The voices i think are the worst. When i get my voices it is usually when im under ALOT of stress or when im not taking my medications, or when the medications stop working. When the voices start it sounds like im in a crowded room and everyone is talking at once. When it gets really really bad thats when one voice sticks out ( a male voice) and starts telling me to hurt myself. It has NEVER told me to hurt anyone else. When that one voice starts telling me to do that, i know i have to get some help, usually it means going to the hospital. Thats when they change my medications, or do something different with my routine. When im in the hospital im usually there for about at least 1 week. Its very difficult to be in a hospital but i know i have to be in there when things get bad.
When the voices start, i can keep them at bay usually with music and headphones. The headphones keep it quiet. I know it sounds odd but it does. If the voices get really loud i cant focus on ANYTHING. Its annoying to say the least. I feel like going insane when they get that bad. I hate when they get that bad. When i first started getting the voices, I didnt know what was going on and got real scared. I had NO CLUE what to do. Luckily i had some people there to help me and i ended up in the hospital to try to get rid of them. But let me tell you, it was no easy task. I say if i get them it usually takes up to about a week to get rid of them depending on how it is treated. If i get the 1 voice saying to hurt myself then it takes longer to get rid of. Its just the way it is i guess.
I guess this sounds horrible when you read it. Meaning it sounds like im "off my rocker" when i write these things but in all reality, it makes me understand my brain a little bit better. If that makes sense. I know when im under too much stress and i know when to get help now. Some people dont know when they are under too much stress until it is too late.
Thats it for now. The next post will be my symptoms of being in trouble. (its not just the voices). Thank you for reading. :)
Thanks for describing what it's like when you hear voices. I've never read someone tell what it's like from inside their head,it makes it much easier to understand. If it's not too intrusive to ask..can you have a conversation with the voice(s) or is it a one way communication? I guess I'm asking if you can convince the voices to stop or do you always require hospitalization/meds? If any of these questions are inappropriate, please let me know.
ReplyDeleteSome people can have a conversation with them. I cant. I have tried to cover my ears with my hands and talk but that doesnt work. So for me it does require hospitalization or med changes. Thank you for asking. Im glad i can answer. You can ask anything you want. i'll try to answer as many as i can ;)
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