Today im going to talk about the highs and lows of bipolar. When I personally have highs and lows it usually happens with in the day. I am what you call a rapid cycler in bipolar terms. Let me tell you it is HARD when your this rapid to control how you feel. I go from being down one moment to being out of control and "HIGH" the next minute.
Being on these rapid cycles really makes you think your crazy. I know when i first started with bipolar and i had these highs and lows everyday constantly all day, it was like someone else was controlling my emotions and playing with them. I couldnt control anything going on. Lately i have been having this problem. When im low im so low i feel like just committing suicide. The next moment i may feel so high that i feel like im on top of the world, yet the next moment i maybe back to my feeling low again. It just doesnt seem to end when im on this rollercoaster.
The first thing i have had to do is get my medications under control. Now im going through intense group therapy to try to learn more about my condition. If you feel like this or think you have bipolar or anyother mental illness, EDUCATE yourself on this. It helps to know that your not the only person that is going through all this shit. I know last week was the first week i found out that i had this rapid cycling and that it was a part of the bipolar. I am not the only one that is like this. There are HUNDREDS, THOUSANDS that have this. PLEASE EDUCATE and go see a professional. Its very important if you do this. Thank you for reading.
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